First of all, this is a great song, but you have to give it more props than just good lyrics. Its release was so impeccably timed with prom, wedding, graduation season. There is no way a song like this wouldn’t be successful at those occasions. However, other than this being a good summer jam, it got me thinking about a ton of stuff. I found out an acquaintance of mine was just diagnosed with leukemia. He is young and healthy (training for a triathlon healthy, not just eats sushi and doesn’t smoke healthy) Anyway, this news was obviously not taken well in light of my grandfather passing and then for the fact that I am genuinely fond of this kid & think that even if it was my worst enemy news like this would be devastating to anyone.
I haven’t even been able to bring myself to discuss what stage it’s at, what they are doing to treat him, how he is handling it, etc etc. I figure between the physical tolls his body is taking, I don’t need to add to the emotional toll by annoying him with all kinds of questions. (Plus in 100% honesty, we aren’t even that close for me to be in his business like that, even if the concern is legitimate)
Anyway as past blog posts show, I have been feeling low about all sorts of things. And as cliché as this sounds, but this news has really put so much into perspective for me. I have come to the realization that don’t need to sit here and analyze where my relationship is going, or when I will get promoted at work, or what my dad will do for his sanity and financial security when his company is closed. At the end of the day, there are a handful of things in our control and then there are a handful of things that just aren’t. If we get the strength to take control of the reigns and handle what we can, most of us won’t have the time to obsess over what we can’t control. I have certain goals of mine that need to be achieved (re taking the GMAT, losing an exorbitant amount of weight, etc) these tasks seem daunting and are things I don’t particularly want to take on for whatever issues I have, but at the end of the day, these are all within my control and reach. If my boyfriend and I break up or get married one day is yet to be determined. All I can do is take it day by day. There are no concrete actions I can be taking to determine the outcome of our relationship like I can with the exam or weight loss. Just like T could not have taken any measures to prevent his diagnosis, I have to concede to what I can do and what needs to be left to fate or destiny.
I need to remember that I am still young and so if I want to change career paths or go back to school or physically revamp myself, I have the support of my age and stage in life to support me. There are many circumstances later in life that tend to limit what a person can or can not do. I can’t piss away my youth worrying about things that I can’t do and need to just take control of what I can. Amen to being young.
